A choice between two things,
the forked road,
a cross road,

where men given life must take in order to stay alive.

Which ever end they live on,
they lose something.
Which ever end they live on,
they are unable to find happines.

BUT, are there really only 2 paths to a forked road?
No, there are infinite paths we must take.

there IS more than one path.
There's more than one path to the future.


~Vash TheStampede

So I had a dream this morning, I wish I could share it with you, But all I remember were the basic details. First off I was in this winter wounder land, of hills, snow, and an enormous building that was sort of mysterious castleish-time themed.

I was outside having an amazing time, there was snow hills and ice structures, and I was with someone, I can't recall now whome, and then my friends, who I can recall some of, came up and we started playing around having a good time.
Untill then I can't remember, all I can remember is I ended up somehow in this building because of an injury or something else.

This Building, as I said, was Castleish themed, very.. Medevil style. Stone walls/floors, carpets, ect. When you come in the very large enormous door, of which I can't recall was made of, (is it just me, or does the word "of" look like a really weird looking word now.. haha ) Anyways, as I was saying, when you walk through this door, there is an enormous foyer, height-wise. I'd say this foyer was about 25feet high, could have been higher. To the left of when you walk in is a long straight flight of stairs going about half way up. And to the right of the door I'm not sure of where it lead, somewhere under the second level.

As you reached the top, you can notice a large chandelier hanging from above. At the very top of the stairs their is a short balcony in front (I'll explain what for later on), when you reach this and take a right you'll run along a balcony to the left of you, this balcony is facing the foyer. On this level we have to our right as you stand where the foyer balcony is, a ramp. The ramp goes down covered in red carpet. Where it leads will be explained further on. if we go straight, there is a small floor area of stone that reaches back to the wall and parallels with the ramp creating a stone wall for the ramp as it leads down. On that floor of stone there's couches and a chair with a coffee table and a fire place, this is where I was at, relaxing on the couch. Then I noticed this door, it was below the other balcony along the wall.

I went down the ramp, which stopped in the middle becoming flat, then on the right of this level was another set of ramp, going down in the oposite direction parallel of it, and at the bottem (adding that at the bottem of this wasn't as deep as the foyer, so this building must have rested on a hill) was a black metal door slightly taller than a normal house entrance door. Lining this door down the center was a crevice filled with hinges. At the top, in the middle of the very top and center was a chain hanging down along the crevice. I looked at the chain, noticing it had one noticible detail. That it needed to be pulled. So I grabbed ahold of this chain and tugged on it, folding the door inside. As I let go of the chain the door automatically swung outside in its folded state.

this door lead back out into the pure white winter wounderland, as I stood there breathing in the suroundings, Noticing my friends passing by, I watched, then took the step down to ground level. I began to walking aimlessly around, heading down the path in the oposite direction that my friends went. As I walked along this path I noticed the only things around were ice, snow, and a type of creature. These creatures were extremely large with fur. They were almost mamoth looking, but not. Just giant clumps of brown fur. But I didn't have a feeling of fear that they were there. My guess is that they were tame and probally plant eating creatures.


And this is as far as my dream went, to the point of when I woke up. I'm sorry I didn't really have a story, as I said, only details.

My love for my lover is sometimes on it's greatest heights,
and then there's days where I feel nothing in my soul, where does my heart go?
God, is it true?
No mater how hard we try, the souls of the man is cursed with evil, Can we not be free but only in you,
maby your love can pump our dead hearts once again over and over again day after day without tiring,
if only we were to sink ourselfs in you, in your love day after day. Our love without you is limited with charge.
But if it goes to you first we will be filled with an everylasting flow of love. Why is this?
Because our expectations in being loved is met, because you sacraficed your life so that we can love you for
the eternity of your exstence. This is what motivates us to love without anything in return, uncondionaly will our
love be, even if we are failed by other people. We can continue to give it out to them.

O.O

Updated :

Here's the deal~ I've had a hip replacment. Recovered faster than average so I'm out and in bed rest, I can move around withsh krutches but my mushles are still healing. I was given 2 types of instructions for 6 weeks untill it heals, 1) 3 rules of which I can not move my leg, or it would dislocate and wuold end up.. screwed .. <.< xD 2) I have to do some exersizes P: but doing routine things turns me off xP it'll be cool though lol my motivation is the outcome of me not doing them is I wouldn't have mutch of a rotation~ xD that would suck <.<
But after 6 weeks I'll be better than normal. love ya guys~


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A letter my mom wrote to update people:

Stephen had his hip replacement yesterday afternoon, hooray. Dr. Attarian said that his hip looked so bad that he wondered how Stephen could even walk on it. The Dr.'s expectation was his hip replacement to last 30 plus years with a titanium/cobalt metal on metal hip. After coming out of recovery, they left the epidural in through the night and took it out this morning. Since then Stephen is having quite a bit of pain and is trying to get a handle on it. Shortly he will have his physical therapy (as soon as his pain level lowers a bit). They are thinking Saturday for releasing him although there is a slight chance that he may go home tomorrow. Please pray for better pain management and a quick recovery.


We feel the Lord's hand upon us and are thankful and blessed for Stephen's new leg (since he was 13!).

Love and Hugs to all!!

Tina

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If I never told you about it, here's an explination why.
Back when I was 13 I had injured my leg and got a rare 3 year lasting desiese ca~lled Perthese.

Basicaly what it is, is, the earea of the injury gets fluid sent to it. This fluid made my hip extremely soft deforming it from weight such as walking. For 3 years.

the bone got so bad but despite that lol I played DDR even though i had pain which probally killed even more, BUT I need this hip replacment anyways~ So why care? xD

So there ya go, one of my big problems~ finaly~ fixed o.o